Confessions: I Started Feeling Doubts About My Natural Hair
I’ve been natural a little over 2 1/2 years now and it has been a journey, to say the least. From learning how to style such short hair during my big chop days, to realizing the importance of conditioning, my natural hair journey has been a learning process.
Most recently, I’ve dealt with doubting whether or not I should wear my hair in its natural state for a couple of reasons.
One, as an entertainment blogger who occasionally appears in videos, I began to doubt whether or not my hair was giving me the look that I wanted. My Lion told me a long time ago that my hair was my brand but as I recorded more and more videos and my hair looked less than stellar, I really contemplated whether or not I would be able to continue rocking my fro for work.
Two, after coloring my hair and not sticking to my hair care routine, I experienced a lot of breakage and thinning of the hair above my ears. I didn’t want to further stress my hair with styling. Around the same time, JessicaSimien.com entered into partnership with Pinkarpet Hair Boutique and I wore a sew-in with their hair for photos for our campaign together and I thought that it really looked good in videos, on photos and I looked “glamorous” like an entertainment blogger should.
But the more I looked at my products sitting on my dresser and saw old photos of me, the more I missed my natural hair.
I missed the way it shaped my face. I missed the way it made me look unique. With weave, I blended in with all the other women around me. But with my natural hair, I look different…even if there are other women with natural hair around. I still look like me and I LOVE it!
Don’t get me wrong, sew-ins are great protective styles and I will continue to do them but I will never doubt whether or not my natural hair is “right” for me…it is my hair after all!